[He strokes Elidibus's cheeks with his thumbs, looking at him thoughtfully.]

It is hard to comprehend the man I once was.

And yet I can imagine that for you it is an even more daunting prospect. Which is why I do not want you to feel as if being that man is what you should be. Even to remember may be as painful and overwhelming as it might be enlightening or useful. Which is why it is your choice.

What part of it terrifies you so?