[He regards Elidibus, stroking a finger through his hair to push it back over an ear.]
He believed what happened to you would happen to Hades and I. He meant to sever the connection before we could suffer the same corruption. His intention was to do it to Hades as well, but my reaction to Zodiark's loss was not what he expected, and his opportunity was lost. All the better, frankly.
I understand what motivated him, and I do not think he would ever do such a foolish thing again. Not just this, but that he has learned to curb his impulses somewhat, especially when it comes to us he is like to ask and seek our desires rather than to react.
But that is what I understand of him. Tell me what you are thinking.
What is there for me to say? I am furious at those who harmed you, regardless of their intentions. I am disgusted with our captors for making you go through such a thing in the first place. I wish I had been there to help.
Your presence would have been deeply comforting, of course. I suppose I can expect no other reaction, I would feel much the same in reversed positions.
[He tugs on Elidibus's hand, wrapping an arm around his waist.]
In any way that matters, I already have. I will not deny remembering it makes me wince, nor that the scars on my heart for it do not exist. But I yet persist, and I have you, and Emet-Selch, and new allies and even loved ones besides.
Be angry all you wish, I would not deny you how you feel, but know that I am here, whole, before you. And have no wish to change that.
And yet that is essentially what you seem to desire. If you wished to save me in either instance it would require having such foresight and alacrity as to prevent the events or appear at the right moment to divert their course, if any of us had such powers of prescience we would all be in a better situation.
Instead we have ever relied on splitting up and trusting one another to do their part. It served us well for eons, until it did not. That is not your failing.
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rainshaveceased) wrote2022-11-15 10:55 pm
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He believed what happened to you would happen to Hades and I. He meant to sever the connection before we could suffer the same corruption. His intention was to do it to Hades as well, but my reaction to Zodiark's loss was not what he expected, and his opportunity was lost. All the better, frankly.
I understand what motivated him, and I do not think he would ever do such a foolish thing again. Not just this, but that he has learned to curb his impulses somewhat, especially when it comes to us he is like to ask and seek our desires rather than to react.
But that is what I understand of him. Tell me what you are thinking.
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I am sorry. I have somewhat been avoiding it for its unpleasantness.
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What are your thoughts? Ever do I value your insight.
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In any way that matters, I already have. I will not deny remembering it makes me wince, nor that the scars on my heart for it do not exist. But I yet persist, and I have you, and Emet-Selch, and new allies and even loved ones besides.
Be angry all you wish, I would not deny you how you feel, but know that I am here, whole, before you. And have no wish to change that.
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Knowing that does help. Your wellbeing is what really matters, after all.
It's just... I never seem to be there when you need me the most.
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Two times is hardly never. And you are here now, which is an inestimable relief to my heart.
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Instead we have ever relied on splitting up and trusting one another to do their part. It served us well for eons, until it did not. That is not your failing.
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I have my own regrets, reasonable and unreasonable. It is not as if I do not understand.
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Do you think Emet-Selch feels that way too?
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