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No. But that does not mean I fail to voice them.

Then perhaps you are simply a stronger man than I.

I would never say that. You are far stronger to carry what you have.

But it takes a measure of trust to bear your heart and your fears. I have plenty of trouble sharing them. But I make the effort, for they cannot be addressed if they stay within.

This is what I meant by coercion. You are making me sound entirely unreasonable.

If you feel unreasonable perhaps there is something to examine there.

But I truly do not mean to pressure you. Especially right now. There is already much you are adjusting to. And I have faith as you grow more comfortable and explore the possibilities open to you, that sharing your thoughts and fears will seem less insurmountable.

I do trust you, of course. That is not an issue in the slightest. And I know that you simply wish to ease my fears.

I just... can't. Not now, at least.

Very well. I have already asked much of you today.

[leans their foreheads together]

Perhaps I will be able to speak of it some other time. Perhaps.

[He'll pet Elidibus's hair.]

I shall not hold my breath. But one thing at a time.

Mm.

[just going to stay like this for a while okok]

[That is fine too, he will hold him close and pet his hair and back quietly.]

[after a good while,]

...If I were to be severed from Zodiark, do you think it would remove my tempering?

I am unsure. I do not see why it would, when Hades and myself remain so, however.

That is a relief, at least.

I would not propose something so painful.

Only something moderately painful?

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Growth can be quite uncomfortable, but is it not worthwhile?

Can it be considered growth if the goal is to recover my old memories?

Certainly. Unless you have no desire to remember?

I don't know.

....I see.

I have said before but I do not wish us to regress to who we once were. That would be rejecting all we have been through and become. Even should that be imperfect.

Yet I wonder if you can truly move forward without remembering.

But that is something only you can decide.

[closes his eyes and falls quiet for a long while again

actually he's so quiet that maybe he just fell asleep?]

[Well that's fine? He'll shift slightly to get more comfortable, brushing his fingertips up and down Elidibus's spine softly. If he's asleep he'll just bask in being able to hold him. Why would he interrupt?]

[muttering softly, like he really is half asleep,]

...Vergil said I used to play the piano.

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